10/27/2005

i'm so lonely....i hav noone now...no one to tok to...no one.....no one i can tell my sadness n unhappiiness to...realliie...i can onli cry alone at a corner....wit no shoulders for me to lean on...i feel lik...dere's realliie no mor meaning in life for me to go on....dere realliie isnt...i dunno y am i still here...wastin de earth's space....i will not choose to die..i will live on but it's jus tat i dunno wat for....i reallie cant take it anymor...i am going to collapse anytym...get a coffin ready for me... i wan a nice one....one tat i can sleep in it n dream all de tym,without realising it is all a dream...n dream tat i am in a fantasy of my own....i have frnez n shoulders to lean on when i need dem....life is boring...makes no difference with or without my existence...de onli difference is tat dere wud be less vacancies in sch n mor ppl fightin for food n water n air....all i can do is to hide my sadness....living to me is a painful n miserable thing to do....it's not sth very cherishable to me...i'm sorry ppl for continuing to live on n fight for things with u all...

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