11/18/2007

ii`m scared . tat nightmare last night really freaked miie out . ii woke frm the dream at 5+ am , nn only fell bak asleep at 7+am , nearly 8am .. nn n0w muh eyes are both sw0llen , frm the crying .. shit . ass . fcking dream . screw it . it's really disturbing .. ii cant put it off muh mind .. !

we were in a dimly lit place .. it wasnt a rm , it was just .. a place , ii dunno whr .. nobody was dere .. xy nn vien were walking in front of miie . they were chatting with each other .. ii wanted to join in .. ii talked tu them , they ign0red miie .. ii called out to them , still no reaction .. ii sh0uted nn screamed , pulled their hands but they just wont look at miie , they just kept talking nn chatting away happily as if nth was happening at all .. ! ii gave up , ii turned bak , nn dere they were - wt , kim , nana , nette . playing ard , joking nn laughing their asses out like alwaes .. =D it cheered miie up a bit , nn wanted to j0in in the fun .. but wadever ii did or said , they just didnt resp0nd to miie like ii didnt exist at all .. ii left them nn decided to try talking to the 2 girls on the other side , they were still walking nn talking , th0 it was kinda like walking on the spot .. weird . their bfs had joined in with them , ii walked up to them , nn tried to talk .. they resp0nded .. ferh a m0ment ii felt so relieved nn happy tat they didnt ign0re miie , but wen they spoke , all th0se feelings drained out of miie .. vien said "YOU DONT BELONG HERE , GO AWAY !" , nn xy said "YEA , STOP PLAYING GOOSEBERRY ! " ............. it was terrifying , ii didnt kn0w wad to do , but to run bak tu nana nn the rest .. nana narr0wed her eyes wen she saw miie , she looked evil , nn she whispered "SO , YOUR BEST FRIENDS DONT WANT YOU ANYMORE .. ? SO DO WE !" nn the rest were like "YEA , YOU DONT BELONG HERE EITHER ..! " nn on one side of miie -vien nn xy with their bfs walking , on the spot , quite a distance away . on the other side - nette , kim , nana , wt , resumed playing happily , nn also a distance away .. nn ii started crying nn crying , then ii woke . mum woke miie , she said she heard s0bbing , ii told her ii had a nightmare , so she jjus went bak to slp .. & ii cudnt go bak to slp since , until a few hrs later .. nn n0w muh eyes are literally just slits , many m0re tyms smaller than it alr is .. this nightmare really sucks ..

& it makes miie wonder , really , DO II EVEN BELONG ANYWHR .. ?


it's boring the whole of today .. nn cold , c0s of the rain .. had nth to do , so re-read HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS .. ii still dd0nt quite understand .. hahas .. ii didnt kn0w kim was g0ing out with us the other day , ii didnt hear her name wen sammy told miie who was g0ing , so ii t0t she wasnt .. nn ii didnt bring the harryp0tter bk . ii`ll make it a point to rmb the next tym .. =) but yea , in the meantym , still trying to figure out the whole thing .. kim explained to miie tat day , but ii f0rgot wad she told miie .. ! bad bad mem0ry huh .. =p

okays , g0tta sc0ot , mum wants miie to pack , or she'll start nagging like hell wen she c0mes bak .. =/ byes .. !

ii hope the nightmare dd0nt bec0me real ..........

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